We’ve updated our Terms of Use to reflect our new entity name and address. You can review the changes here.
We’ve updated our Terms of Use. You can review the changes here.

It All Feels Like an Ending

by The Upside

/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more. Paying supporters also get unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app.
    Purchasable with gift card

      name your price

     

  • Compact Disc (CD) + Digital Album

    Brand new full length CD

    Includes unlimited streaming of It All Feels Like an Ending via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
    ships out within 2 days
    Purchasable with gift card

      $10 USD

     

1.
Revolution 02:11
Hey, I don't remember your name And I don't remember what it felt like I don't remember what it felt like Wait, is that a smile on your face? I don't remember what it looked like I don't remember what it looked like All these silly things that you say Like “I never liked you anyway” I'd find it funny but I know that you don't A revolution in my veins I'm pumping harder every day To make up for a time when my blood ran cold Wrap it up, make it hurt Just the way that I deserve Wrap it up, make it hurt More than words All these shitty things that you say Like “I never loved you anyway” I'd find it funny but I don't feel anything A revolution in my brain That leaves me numb to everything But the taste of a relapse on my tongue I suppose
2.
11:59 02:48
Do you hear wedding bells? 'Cause I hear sirens on the way Do you hear them? And I'll tell you something else With every little lie you've told You're starting to believe them (Christ, your head is full of answers To questions no one asked And you'll never make it to the future If you forget the past) And I'll tell you something else With every fucked up thing you've done I no longer want to hear it Your day is winding down Yeah it's eleven fifty-nine And it's time to fucking seize it (CHORUS) Another lightning bulb Flashes atop your head Another brilliant plan That falls apart in your hands In your hands Another bright idea How to save the day And turn your life around But it won't be okay Okay? (CHORUS) So don't forget the past
3.
Every waking hour I'm running scared To see you at my doorstep I'm so unprepared Remember all the Texas winter nights We'd drink away the cool I was such a fool When I think about just how cold I am now Every season comes and goes But not in my home The leaves may change outside But in here I wouldn't know Remember all the empty bottle fights We'd fuck to make it right I miss those nights When I think about how angry I am now (Share with me All you've come to know And I will let you go Back on your own like before I won't ask any more We'll call this the final score Bury me In a pile of blankets That used to smell like you It may sound pathetic it's true But at twenty-two What else am I gonna do?) Remember all the Texas winter nights We'd drink away the cool I was such a fool When I think about how lonely I am now
4.
Let's take it easy Let's take it slower now That we're older We've been through some hard times But every heart is breaking But yours and mine tonight And I'll meet you in there Though I know you don't care You dream too small for what you're made of And it all comes down to this Let's take it easy The days are longer now And the sun is out We've been through some hard times But every heart is breaking But yours and mine tonight And I'll meet you in there Though I know you don't care And everyone is singing You dream too small for what you're made of And it all comes down To whoever catches your eye when you're on that train Whoever passes you by when you leave in the morning Whoever catches your eye Whoever passes you by when you're on your way Let's take it easy Let's take it slower now That we're older You dream too small for what you're made of And it all comes down To whoever catches your eye when you're on that train Whoever passes you by when you leave in the morning And I'm dreading the day that I Wake up alone to find you on your way
5.
Disheveled 04:40
Take my hand and we'll pretend to be something we're not And pray we don't get caught And exposed for all our fraud and tarred and feathered Cast out of our homes and forced to wander alone Get set upon by crows to pick our bones Take control I'm no one's fool but my own It's my own fault I feel so low A knuckle-dragging nobody Broken down disheveled A sight to see for sure Neither the illness nor the cure Just a six-foot strung-out sugar pill And I'll wait around For every single holiday That you planned for me was a lie And I wanna take 'em back You left me to remember when If we meet again in this life I don't wanna take it ('Cause every other day, Every other day All I ever want is any other life, any other life I'm wearing thin Where do I begin to take it back) I don't want to be here at all I don't want to feel so small I don't want to know I'm wearing out my welcome If I ever had one If I ever had the chance to be free I would fucking leave And every single harmony That you sang with me was a lie And I wanna take 'em back You left me to remember when If we meet again in this life I don't wanna take it You're the heart in this heart attack I'm the wind at your back
6.
An Ending 02:23
There comes a time in every boy's life When he has to say fuck it and stop feeling paralyzed There comes a point when it all feels like an ending And you have to stop pretending what you're defending is worth the fight And if you're not opposed to marriage And if you're not opposed to speaking the truth Why does everything I say hurt you Now it's time to head down to the liquor lake And dip my figurative wings in some literal alcohol And stumble back and forth across the bed And fumble with these feeble fingers fucked out of my head And if you're not opposed to lying Why not go ahead and slaughter the lamb And leave me here with this blood on my hands I still don't understand Now it's time to head down to the liquor lake And dip my figurative wings in some literal alcohol And run up to my room and lock the door Try to ignore your ever-pounding fists and cries for more always more And yeah a part of me still loves you But a bigger part of me wants to break your fucking neck And though the hate will fade in time I'll never be fine
7.
Revelations 03:48
I'm gonna jump right out of my skin If I think for just one second That I might lose you again These love songs are revelations But if you've heard this one before we can change the station I could change your mind We could change our names and leave behind All the elaborate things we never did I'm gonna drink right out of my mind And smoke your love to the filter With each breath trying to find a reason why You always choose hesitation I'm losing steam and sleep and trust and patience But I'll be fine I'll take it one night at a time And dream of the simple things I never did (And if it's the end At least I've got my fingers And if it's the end At least I've got my friends, yeah And if it's the end At least I've got this feeling That all that I can do is begin again) And I never lied When I said I never wanted Any of this Fine, never mind You're out the door and I'm out of my mind When left to imagine what I never could (CHORUS) Fine, never mind You're out the door and I'm out of my mind When left to imagine what I never could
8.
Totem 02:41
I paid the price and I'm out the door I wrapped my head around it You're better without me around I'd tell you what I'm fighting for If you could wrap your heart around it You're better without me around Don't cry You've never been the type So why start it now Drowning all my loneliness Every single night It's all right No more late night phone calls home Every single night I saw the signs like a totem pole And I wrapped my car around it 'Cause I'm better without me around I won't cry I've never been the type So why start it now
9.
All the bills are paid All the phone calls made The map is up on the wall There's boxes in the hall Haven't slept in days The nervousness keeps me awake It's crowded when I stand up And lonely when I fall (We were gonna take the world by storm Five souls waiting to be born We'll hang a gold record up some day But not in the house on Bluecreek Lane) And the van broke down In another podunk town They don't even sell beer here How am I supposed to calm down Another temper lost Another show canceled on us We'd try to keep the dream alive But there's none left to discuss (CHORUS) And it'd be lovely to recall A happy ending for us all In the brotherhood of the traveling bottle It's good to see you, how have you been Still wrapped up in the same old shit? Not growing up just getting older
10.
Found Out 04:32
I'm a little mixed up tonight And my head is pounding And I'm a little afraid to find what I've been looking for It's a little cold out tonight But my palms are sweating And I'm a little afraid to find what I've been looking for is You And I'm on the upside tonight But the downturn is coming As we shy away from all the lights that shine on us tonight And I know that in hindsight I'll see through your disguises But against all advices I just can't keep my wanting hands off You (And we're moving Fast through the weekend Like we're trying to hide it And everyone is looking at us now We're found out I kinda can't help it And it's no big secret And everyone is looking at us now We're found out) It's a little-known fact of life That sometimes you get what you wish for But wishes come with catches And kisses yeah they'll catch up to You (CHORUS) And I know you want to blame me for the heartbreak And it's the hardest part to find And I know you hate me for the same reason The reason And I know you want to blame me for the heartbreak And it's the hardest part to find And I know you hate me for the same reason The reason
11.
Resolution 03:36
About ninety miles out on the interstate I can finally feel the pain I escaped I sing along to these city lights And I don't miss you at all I'm so tired of running So tired of running I'm so tired of running So tired of running My list of goodbyes has been thrown away My throat can barely choke and my heart just breaks I came alive in your silhouette But I don't miss it at all I'm so tired of running So tired of running I'm so tired of running So tired of running I want it all or everything You said we passed like Two ships in the night More like we crashed and we sunk And there were no survivors You said we passed like Two ships in the night I said yeah right more like This whole thing is fucking stupid And so are you

credits

released May 25, 2012

Recorded, Mixed & Mastered by Rob McGregor. Produced by The Upside & Rob McGregor. Words by Jason Small, Music by The Upside

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

The Upside Gainesville, Florida

The Upside formed in 2011 and released the "Down for the Fount Count" EP, a blast of catchy, aggressive pop-punk produced by Less Than Jake's Roger Lima. This was followed by 2012's "It All Feels Like an Ending" produced by Rob McGregor (Hot Water Music, Against Me!). 2013's "Look the Other Way" sees The Upside expanding their sound while refining their unique blend of punk and alternative rock. ... more

contact / help

Contact The Upside

Streaming and
Download help

Shipping and returns

Redeem code

Report this album or account

If you like The Upside, you may also like: